Small things make huge disturbance

Hi,

Hope you all are doing fine…

I am unable to sleep…

and the worst part…

I don’t understand why….

I have to get up early today…

there is this sports day going in my office….

I am a player in basketball and tug of war team….

I think I am excited about it….

I will do whatever it takes today to win….

but I don’t have any disturbing thoughts…..

I just feel the need of someone to be near me….

I spend most of my time in my room….

its on the 3rd floor….

usually no one comes up…

I like that… as there is no disturbance of any sort….

but yes, sometimes I miss company….

I feel the need to talk to someone… who could understand me….

there is a lot to accomplish yet….

certifications are done…

need to brush up my knowledge and face interviews….

the shock I got from ebay….

I am recovering… but I would not leave them be….

I will register a complaint in consumer forum….

lets see how it goes….

maybe I will get a compensation…

else it would be an enlightening experience…..

though I feel guilty for not attending classes for past two months….

firstly I wanted to avoid  her as much as possible….

and secondly… I did not wanted to travel a lot by public transport…..

so, here I am….

unable to sleep….

feeling a bit guilty….

and robbed by an eCommerce site….

but… this all made me see some aspects of my life that I did not noticed earlier….

like the music… I generally listen to….

or the kind of music available on radio….

its mostly hard and harsh beats…..

the kind of music that accelerates blood flow….

I realized that I listen to music to relax…

and this music is doing the opposite….

hence I become irritable and tired….

hence not eating well… because I am irritable…

and just want to eat food to get it over with….

so, I changed the collection…

It helped….

I feel relaxed….

hence think clearer….

and understanding better….

why do small things make such huge disturbances….

but I love the change it made me go through….

feeling better…. relaxed… not thrilled…

I think every kind of music serves a purpose….

well this is a learning for me…

with my own experiences…

But, I would like to know about yours too….

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Hi,

Things are not going as planned…………I am unable to wake up early in the morning……….because my parents make so much of noise around 5 to 5:30 that I get disturbed and get a headache…………and my sleep is disturbed………….so I fall asleep again and I wake up around 10…………half an hour late for travelling………….it takes 1 and a half hour to travel to the place where I have classes………….and I have not attended any for the past three weeks plus…………….and they are not willing to understand as well………..I have told them many times………..its like family pulling you back…………I want to move away from them…………but they do stupid things when I am not around that I doubt their well being……………and I am still recovering from the sickness………….I just want this to change…………..I want them to understand…………hell…………I have been working on the blog for Abhishek……………..he is fond of photography…………so I thought a blog to give him exposure would be a good idea for a gift……….where he could post his clicks and get some audience…………so as soon as he provides me his good clicks……..I will make it go live…………till then…………..i will keep on doing whatever the crazy writing I have been doing for past two months almost…………..I like to share whatever happened with me in my life……………and how I dealt with it…………..with others…………so that they can correct me……………….or learn from my mistakes………….well as of now I want to stick to the schedule……………classes and office…………..and a better opportunity to work…………..where I could be happy…………and get a re-numeration better then what I get in this company…………..but yes I made some really good friends here……….and I would miss them…………and I learned some lessons for lifetime………..anyhow………..I am leaving my worries for the god………..and I am going to enjoy what I have at present………….