Small things make huge disturbance

Hi,

Hope you all are doing fine…

I am unable to sleep…

and the worst part…

I don’t understand why….

I have to get up early today…

there is this sports day going in my office….

I am a player in basketball and tug of war team….

I think I am excited about it….

I will do whatever it takes today to win….

but I don’t have any disturbing thoughts…..

I just feel the need of someone to be near me….

I spend most of my time in my room….

its on the 3rd floor….

usually no one comes up…

I like that… as there is no disturbance of any sort….

but yes, sometimes I miss company….

I feel the need to talk to someone… who could understand me….

there is a lot to accomplish yet….

certifications are done…

need to brush up my knowledge and face interviews….

the shock I got from ebay….

I am recovering… but I would not leave them be….

I will register a complaint in consumer forum….

lets see how it goes….

maybe I will get a compensation…

else it would be an enlightening experience…..

though I feel guilty for not attending classes for past two months….

firstly I wanted to avoid  her as much as possible….

and secondly… I did not wanted to travel a lot by public transport…..

so, here I am….

unable to sleep….

feeling a bit guilty….

and robbed by an eCommerce site….

but… this all made me see some aspects of my life that I did not noticed earlier….

like the music… I generally listen to….

or the kind of music available on radio….

its mostly hard and harsh beats…..

the kind of music that accelerates blood flow….

I realized that I listen to music to relax…

and this music is doing the opposite….

hence I become irritable and tired….

hence not eating well… because I am irritable…

and just want to eat food to get it over with….

so, I changed the collection…

It helped….

I feel relaxed….

hence think clearer….

and understanding better….

why do small things make such huge disturbances….

but I love the change it made me go through….

feeling better…. relaxed… not thrilled…

I think every kind of music serves a purpose….

well this is a learning for me…

with my own experiences…

But, I would like to know about yours too….

goodmorning

Hi everyone,

 

I feel better today……..had a good sleep……hmm……lets see the updates……Diya is commenting on my post in facebook……..but she is still not texting or calling me…….still hanging on to her ego……….anyhow I would be patient and wait…….I have self respect too……..Upasana and I are still not talking……..she is not coming to office…….maybe on leave or fallen sick………I care and want to ask……but she never calls me, or text me, we hardly talk……….so I wont……and my arms are killing me……….yesterday I did extra sets during workout………yes,it will get better…….as they say……no pain no gain………other matters are still in pipeline……need to work on them……….actually I want to do some business…….but every time I consider something………..there is always a criteria where my resources do not match and fulfill the requirements…….. never mind……someday……there would be enough………..and I learned a new word…..Uitwaaien……..which means to clear the mind………….and that’s exactly what I need now……..I know and understand that I used to think that I go unnoticed……but that’s not the truth……….people follow me……..they like me the way I carry myself and do things……….the way I stay normal and natural when everyone else is pretending…………friends love me…….and these girls……forgive me if you think I am boasting about myself……..but these girls are missing something really good………..and someday they would realize that………and it would be very late by then…….because…..as an intelligent man said once……..the only thing he learnt in his life    about his life was that………Life Goes On………so will I……