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I am trying

Hi,

 

I managed to fail yet another interview……….but yes I am happy…… at-least I made a move…………lets see where I end up………..

anyhow………I really appreciate all the love and support I am getting from you all………….love you……….keep on motivating me………..you all are like my fuel………….

things that i have predicted in my older posts are turning out to be true now…………..and yes people in office did missed me…………..that includes my friends and others………….

the manager is so cheap that he did not provided me pick up and drop from office……….on the last working days…………the shift timings were odd……….it used to begin at 1430 hours and end at 0000………and at 0000 getting a auto or taxi is very difficult……….I was almost stuck on 08/05/2014 in the office………….

I wish someday that son of a bitch would get what he deserves………… karma will take its toll……

I wanted to forgive and forget………..but this did it…………..anyhow…………now I would have TIME……….I would be able to sketch and write…………and maybe paint………..and obviously study…………live a normal routine for some time………..meet people………..and read…

there is a load of books that is accumulating dust………..and some pdf’s that are loosing their binary code…………I will release their pain of being idle……….

I am still dealing with the same old question that is how to understand a woman………they like you……..dress up for you………like talking to you………but still they ignore you……..what does this mean……..

If you like someone……..you do what you have to do……….to spend time and be with them……….where will this ignoring part be useful……….

as I wrote in my earlier posts……….it takes time to forget…….time is the ultimate medicine……..

there is still a lot to do………..and there is so less done……..every-time I study I realize……..how less I know……….

I am getting sleepless nights now a days………I guess my energy is not utilized fully………I will include some workout too in my daily routine……..after switching to glutton free diet…….I already feel more active…….

 

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Asusual

Hi,

 

Today was moderate………….not much energy………..it was like everyday……….woke up early……..then went back to my bed…………then an extended and relaxing sleep………..then I finally got up……….studied a little……….so that I don’t feel guilty that I am not doing anything………..soon my days in my present company would be over…………..9th of May would me my last working day………….over the past year……….so many memories would be staying with me all my life……….some good some great…………bad ones……….I forgot them already……..except some………they would take some time…….anyhow………I am feeling better……….my health is improving………..and now I would take no chances……….. until…….it is very essential……….had a good time in my office today………..friends I don’t understand why keep on mocking me all the time……….I guess they like the fact that I don’t get mad over silly things……….so they go full on crazy……….they would call me names…………and what not………I crack PJ’s on them…………and then they would say that………..He’s like this……..crazy and dumb………its no use to make him understand……………they even call me a retard…………and then we all laugh like crazy………..everyone likes our stupidity…………and wants to be a part of it…………..I have told all of them that I write a blog……..and I guess everyone has been here discretely………….and its good isn’t it………..I don’t have to say everything………..and all they have to read through all my crazy writing……………and understand what has been happening with me………..well the only thing that makes me feel a little bad is that…………..when they all say that…………soon you would be gone………who would be there to mock………..and I guess they are correct………..its because I don’t go crazy over what they say………they mock me and have so much fun together………….once I would be gone………they would continue doing this and yup……….someday or the other………someone would take it to his mind…………….and that’s where things are going to get bad……….and then some low days would go by…………but let’s not worry about the future now………..it will eventually resurface………and than I would deal with it accordingly………….I am still compiling the post that would contain the drafts……….that I saved for Upasana………..the idiotic things I did to share my feelings with her someday…………..but that day has never arrived till now………..so I will put them here……….maybe someday she would go through them……….maybe never……….who cares now……….I have a life to live……….and yes this song……saathi salaam by Sawan khan manganiyar and Clinton cerejo……..gives me goose bumps……listening to this while writing…….enjoy!