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countdown till touchdown

Hi,

On Monday I went for interview………..did not made it through this time as well…………..and i am back………..I sent an email to the consultancy that scheduled the interview…………..lets see if they have more options……………..I learn from mistakes…………so i will perform with improvement next time…………well that’s about interviews……….my stupid manager marked me a warning email………..I don’t know what he wants to prove to me……….or to team members……….I have only about a week left in the company…………time to move on is here………..its like throwing stones on people passing by…………I don’t like it that I am writing less now a days…………with all the support you all have showed……..I really want to write daily………….lets see where life takes us………….once the notice period would be over I would be able to live a normal life for some time…………I would sleep in the night…………I would work in the day……….I would eat breakfast…….lunch and dinner……….I hardly remember the last time I had lunch…………..I eat in the evening……..after a light breakfast………….I would go for walks in the evening………..It has been a very long time………..that I went for a walk in the evening………….and I would volunteer for community service………if I got a chance………….I don’t think it would make any difference in anyone’s life after leaving this company………….It would be a great relief for me………..as I would not see the faces that I dislike………or want to forget………….I guess………life would be getting better after this………..I have learnt from experience that we don’t always make right decisions…………..as a matter of fact nothing is right or wrong…………everything is relative………..a decision that feels wrong today might make you feel like the best decision you have made in a lifetime………and sometimes a good decision might seem to fail………..its all about how you cope up with it………..like an Intelligent man once said……….If you think you are going through HELL………keep going…………he is correct in the sense that if you stop……….if you loose the will to keep on moving………you would be stuck in hell………..till you get a grip………..keep on moving………..it does not take long jumps……..or fast strides………but just firm small steps………..consistent…………. perseverance is the word…………..persistence…………..passion………….In the end what really would matter is………how satisfied you lived……….how happy were you throughout your lifetime………….after death no one can take his/her bank-balance or property along……….these things are materials that can play a part in a persons happiness………..but they are never a guarantee for happiness……….contentment occurs from inside……..

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sluggish time

Hi,

 

First of all….I am overwhelmed by your love and support…………..you all are awesome………..hope to see that going on………….I have not written anything in the past three days………..and I felt bad about it………….office environment is still the same………..I wish the notice period was lesser………..everyday seems distressed…………..there are people who don’t deserve things………….they are getting them………..and there are deserving ones………….waiting………..management portrays itself to be impartial……….but what goes on……….is totally polar………….they boast about even the smallest things they do…………..inside my head I have stabbed them…………I have decapitated them……….teared them apart from limb to limb………..but in reality I still see them walking………….I never desired anyone’s ill……….but for them………its the only thing I could dream of………….someday karma would take its toll…………till then I think I would enjoy slaughter in my head………….till the time I don’t see them anymore…………..apart from this there is a lot going over my mind right now……………..career, growth, money…………….let’s see how it turns out to be………….and in all this I shared my blogs link with my friends……………prior to that it was anonymous…………now its public………….and after reading it they have started to give me all sorts of advice’s………..like I should not use names…………..I should not do this…………..I should not do that……………appreciate that…………but what I would appreciate more from them………….is if they could tell me………….how could I make this better…………..anyhow………..I am not changing anything as of now……………because I didn’t find the reasons they gave me to stop doing things…………..good enough………….so I would continue…………whatever the racket I am running here for them……………I think they are more concerned about others then me……………well that’s there take on life………….can’t help that…………can’t influence anyone………….maybe they would realize that once I would be gone………….there is no denying the fact that they are really good friends of mine………..and I like and respect their views………….but its my story……….so I would write it my way………….so that down memory lane…………..some years later………..I could rejoice………….come back to this day………….and compare…………time now feels moving sluggishly………..I wish it move faster and these distressful days of my notice period get over……………and I know………..no matter how close we are as friends…………..once i would be gone…………life would settle down…………..and no one would give a damn about an empty seat…………….because there would always be more people willing to take that place…………..and that’s practicality………..as they time is the best medicine………..heals everything…………..hope it works the same on me………….