Bouncing back to blogging

Hello everyone,

its been a while that I have written anything, well I have been writing and doodling all along but not doing anything to get the load off myself, the entire idea for starting this blog in the first place.

I have been reading and reading like crazy, I have been planning and working towards my goals. Some were met and fulfilled like they were just waiting for me to get started, others are just taking there time.

I think soon they would succumb to my strides. I know seems like all talk and no work.

But, I have been working on my writing style too.

I think you might see some improvement over my previous posts in terms of writing style.

I think I have become better in terms of organizing the ideas and I think I am using punctuation better now.

well still a long way to go.

I had been brainstorming a lot lately, I need to set up a business soon.

But, India is a country where paperwork takes tremendous amount of time, every now and then there are a slight update and change that would keep you hanging for months in a go.

I faced a lot of this bureaucracy when I tried to get my business registered.

Just want things to start up soon.

By the way I have a new buddy in my life that i would love to introduce to all of you.

My beloved Kaizen.

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He is adorable, and keeps everyone in the house on their toes.

very affectionate and well behaved.

I think that comes from his parents.

I just love to make him my pillow every now and then.

well, so far so good.

I recently finished some of my financial commitments, and now I am taking on more of them.

I just want get them over soon.

I was recently diagnosed with dengue and was hospitalized for days, so was my mother please don’t catch that.

be safe and take precautions.

And I really appreciate the care and comfort of my family and friends.

And, I plan to write more often, feels great to be here, Hope you all have been doing great too.

complications and solutions

Hi,

Hope you all are doing good…

Life gets a little boring when you are going with the flow…

I have being doing things as they were coming to me…

There is no thrill… no adventure…

I miss her…. and i have told her this too…

but there is no reaction at all….

she would not text me back….

its been two weeks… we have not talked like we used to…

I want her as she was….

like we met…

things always take a different turn… I am not denying that I didn’t told her what she was doing wrong…

I told her to behave… and learn to talk….

life is tangled… I try to make it less complicated… 

the more complicated it gets…

I have no savings left… and have credit card bill to pay…

I am feeling bodily urges too…

and that makes me eccentric…

I have been doing fine at work…

saved some money for certificates…

now I want to face the situation…

but I want to make sure I don’t insult her… but don’t feel like to keep a check on my words too…

i want to make it polite…

and then I want some money… I tried something extra to get some money…

but things did not went well…

I want to be action oriented…

but I want my actions to be meaningful…

either I can keep on taking action…

till I get it right….

or I think and then act…

its like either I be impulsive… or be cautious…

both are extreme… I want to be fun.. that lies somewhere in the exact middle….

I want to fill my glass a little more…

I want to earn better….

I want my family to be happy… 

I want my family to be financially independent….

They have done a lot….

Life is getting better…. I have a better job…

I experienced love… if I can call it that…

I have great friends… 

I have a huge and loving family…

I think it is getting to my head….

I want to be untied… I want to be free…

Let me finish it… She is online…  To be continued….

I had a conversation and I was not so polite I must say….

I said everything… I know it was not the best way….

but yes it was required…

She did what she does best… she was running away from it…

she is still stuck with the same point she has… not willing to understand at all…

now I am light… the things that I wanted her to understand are out…

I know not in the best of the ways… but yes finally….

Its better to say something then nothing at all…

at least the intended person would know whats going on inside….

then whether they choose to stay or leave is up-to them…

I think it will bring harmony… because I am light….

and opening up was required… small things make a huge difference….

but I was wrong… She is over-ambitious as I knew….

She met her ex and she told me that too…

I want to just remove her from my life…

She is out of my head… and heart…

but yeah when I see her… I feel bad…

Like I did something wrong….

Her ex is a person who has no job…

I am sure I am a thousand times better….

my glass is half empty…

now the situation is…

I want her… at the same time I know all this too…

Presently she is enjoying her leverage….

as she is the object of desire for two people…

she has options…

and I know there is no commitment in this… 

as she is shifting bases… 

now what if a base moves out….

her leverage is lost… and she has one option left….

and its high water mark for me….

I wish that realization dawns upon her….

i may not have taken the best course here…

but I did something about it….

I only have one life…. 

no regrets! things will eventually turn out as they are meant to be.

 

I want to go somewhere

Hi everyone,

Today too i woke up at 3:21AM………..I am trying to move on and get to life……..as it is getting to me…………I see that my friends are enjoying……..don’t know whether…….they are pretending or are really happy and enjoying the life………..I want to enjoy and live my life to the fullest………and I have realized with time that it does not takes great money to enjoy………it takes good friends and some time and money to make the time be the best moments………and I know by now you must have been bored by the same old sad story I have been reciting……..but yup you would understand better……..if you would have been in my shoes…….i know it sounds kind of a looser’s views about himself…….but I don’t need sympathy and views……..I need your valuable responses……..so that I could get over these situations……..as god works in mysterious ways………maybe your words could guide me………motivate me………presently I feel alone and lonely……….and there is a emotional void that I could feel just next to my heart………..friends are busy and don’t respond to me when I need them the most…….I wish they could just understand the way i feel……………yet I know that they never can……….and yes, I have this expectation from my friends that they would text and call me without  any reason…………but this is seldom fulfilled…….sometimes i feel like I have not learnt the way of life till now………and I still need to work on the basics………

Missing someone..

Hi everyone,

Today I am in my office…….working for my bread and butter……but at the same time I am missing someone badly……she is absent…..perhaps on leave…..but that’s making me miss her……..I love that girl……name is Upasana………she is a colleague of mine…….we joined this organization together and somehow were aligned to the same process……at first I used to like her……we used to talk allot…..go on breaks together……..she used to call me sometimes too…….but that’s way back now the things have changed and we don’t talk with each other not even say Hi, or make eye contacts…….but I am sure that I love her……..and love her allot…….I was judging my feelings for her……..and at first I thought that its just infatuation…….but with time I realized that this feeling was still there………I tried to tell her once…….but being an introvert……..I just sketched her portrait……..and when it came to saying anything…….I was tongue-tied……….I sent text to understand her response………but she never responded back with the warmth that I used to feel she has for me………and she was seeing a guy too at the time……..and had a boyfriend to before she joined this organization………she never shared anything personal with me……..whatever the reasons may be……..but still I miss her allot…….just wish that she if not love me……stays my friend and tries to understand me………..spends time with me……share with me…….