and just like that

Hi,

Its monsoon here… days are getting shorter now….

the air is very pleasing too….

hope you all are doing great…

I started this blog to share and learn…

It helped me a lot…

in every way I learned… I grew…

I learned that I get too involved with people…

I have seen this happening to me over and over again….

the more I stay a little distant…

the better it gets with time…

the more closer i get to people…

the more they get judgmental about me I think…

when I am open… I start sharing everything…

I tried to restrict myself… I became very critical…

I realized there is nothing mild I could do…

I reach the extreme…

I start caring… I become too caring…

I stop caring… I am like a wall…

I reason being is I keep pushing my limits…

and most of the time the people fail to notify me on time…. and I don’t notice it myself….

I keep on doing it till… I reach the breaking point…

and no matter what I can’t pretend to be nice to someone whom I dislike…

I cannot smile to their face…. and abuse them in my mind….

I have tried that… it feels good…

but not worth it… I think a person should know what you think about them….

its about honesty… but we can’t expect the same…

so its like give but don’t expect…

and this will bring happiness in turn…

I am happy…. but I am having mood swings….

I feel this energy sometimes… and sometimes I am just drained…

sometimes I am just laughing all the time…. and soon I am silent…

I want to get over these mood swings…

the sooner the better…

It is affecting my relationship with my family and friends….

I cannot let that happen….

I want peace… I did mistake of ignoring early warnings….

but not anymore…

I am getting better day by day…

any ways I had a great time with Akshay…

I recently went to Ghaziabad…

Akshay lives there… so I met him…

and then the fun begins…

we had a few drinks…

and then we went to this club…

It has live music…

and then we went crazy… it was a mad rush…

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Sometimes

Hi,

 

Today I purchased a domain name and i am mapping it to this blog…….never done that before……lets see how it goes…………have a class to attend tomorrow…….then I need to have a decent haircut……my friend, really good friend of mine is getting engaged on 27th……..I have already swapped my week offs with a friend and fellow employee……Ankit…….I don’t have any vibes or any feelings for the engagement………as he would be very busy……….and then………I am not a very rich friend of his……….yup……its the general attitude here………..a person who is not rich…………is just not good enough…………..girls would prefer a dumb rich guy…………over an intelligent man…………who can achieve success…………and can be tremendously rich over time………..that’s stupid I know………..but I live here………born and brought up in metro cities…………….I have seen this in action…………and that is my view…………so I expect a pretty…… okay okay or you can say…………..cold treatment……………….and then I would have to travel back…………..and get back to my normal……….fast paced…………..sometimes fun……….mostly boring life………….Upasana is not talking to me………..rest everyone is there………Diya is more of a distant friend now………we sometimes chat…………she hardly sends text………anyhow……….wish my friends has a good future………….and here I am waiting for my annual appraisal………..lets see what I get………..I would have to switch job soon……..If I don’t get a good hike here…………need some capital to invest…….in my business plan………can’t live like this all my life………its already high time now………….money has always been the central point………I have always felt that at moments if I had more money…….I could have made a difference………..so now I am after excellence………excellence will bring money……and everything else would follow………