Die you son of a bitch

Hello everyone,

Hope all of you are doing well. I am doing good too.

Been working on my earnings, meanwhile I am stuck at a company which is kind of a gone case and is sucking hope out of me.

There have been no appraisals for the past two years in the company I am working right now.

Nor do I hear any news of appraisals happening this year.

Despite this they are not happy. The company is making growth of employees very very stringent.

Could you believe 3 years in same job profile to get an movement to a different profile or to be eligible for a promotion.

Meanwhile the industry standard is 1 year or 1 and a half year.

And the management insists on making the shifts 10 hour long in a 24×7 environment. And they are not willing to provide transport for the employees.

Its maddening, like a monkey is handed over the decision making position.

So, basically there is no hope for an enhanced earning from the company and the debt. is piling up.

I have unpaid emi’s that are attracting interest on themselves.

I wish that I get something better soon.

I hardly see anyone who is happy there anymore.

son of a bitch

Darts with his photograph on is turning out to be my favorite sport now a days

Well this guy is responsible for all the chaos and I find the dart game really soothing.

I just wish the photograph would some day turn into the guy himself and I would be able to kill him with darts.

Despite all this I will have to work in the same place where I do not even wish to go.

Just because I am not financially independent yet.

Well I would like to urge anyone who ever stumbles across this blog post to do something about there finances as soon as possible to get independence from the assholes like the person in the pic who could make your life tough just for fun.

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Aside

attention is the killer

Hi,

How have you all been……..hope you all are doing well………

I got a new job offer finally………and the work location would be nearby my home too……

and it would be nearby my old office as well……..so that I sometimes might visit my friends……or sometimes they might come over…….

the classes are going well…….and I am again legging behind………hope to catch up over the weekend…….

today I was thinking about the attention a person should be awarded……..I was thinking about……..how to decide the quantum of attention that a particular person deserves……..

because if we give someone more attention then they deserve………things don’t end up well……..and if the attention is too less…….again things can go bad…….

so coming back to this very word……”ATTENTION”…….as far as I know…….there can be a time constraint that we could put on this……..

but then again……..situations and scenarios would very drastically………attention given at an optimal time works best……….a little lag…….and the things may turn out differently….

like a spouse cooks dinner for his/her beloved……..and at the dinner table asks him/her……..how was the food……….

now they are obviously seeking attention at that very instance………trust me say something good at that precise moment…….and have a great time ahead……

miss that moment……..miss an opportunity……..

and again……give too much attention at that moment……….and the moment would be blown…….

so how can we decide……..”how much”……….of this word is required………

we all must have gone through situations……..situations that didn’t worked well…………

or situations that went miraculously well……..just because the perfect amount was delivered…..

a perfect amount of this word……..to the recipient……..at the precise moment……

so the perfect algorithm if I may say……would be having factors……..”how much” and “when”……..as far as I could think of…..

if you were able to figure this out…….please share your experiences……….It might help a lot of people…….Including me…….

and yes the after effects…….it would be great how to deal with them as well……..

like if we have done something stupid enough to screw up a situation by over or under utilization of attention…….how can we bounce back on the track and make amends………

I wish there were a manual for life…….

but I think together we could figure this out…….can’t we…….

 

 

 

 

Asusual

Hi,

 

Today was moderate………….not much energy………..it was like everyday……….woke up early……..then went back to my bed…………then an extended and relaxing sleep………..then I finally got up……….studied a little……….so that I don’t feel guilty that I am not doing anything………..soon my days in my present company would be over…………..9th of May would me my last working day………….over the past year……….so many memories would be staying with me all my life……….some good some great…………bad ones……….I forgot them already……..except some………they would take some time…….anyhow………I am feeling better……….my health is improving………..and now I would take no chances……….. until…….it is very essential……….had a good time in my office today………..friends I don’t understand why keep on mocking me all the time……….I guess they like the fact that I don’t get mad over silly things……….so they go full on crazy……….they would call me names…………and what not………I crack PJ’s on them…………and then they would say that………..He’s like this……..crazy and dumb………its no use to make him understand……………they even call me a retard…………and then we all laugh like crazy………..everyone likes our stupidity…………and wants to be a part of it…………..I have told all of them that I write a blog……..and I guess everyone has been here discretely………….and its good isn’t it………..I don’t have to say everything………..and all they have to read through all my crazy writing……………and understand what has been happening with me………..well the only thing that makes me feel a little bad is that…………..when they all say that…………soon you would be gone………who would be there to mock………..and I guess they are correct………..its because I don’t go crazy over what they say………they mock me and have so much fun together………….once I would be gone………they would continue doing this and yup……….someday or the other………someone would take it to his mind…………….and that’s where things are going to get bad……….and then some low days would go by…………but let’s not worry about the future now………..it will eventually resurface………and than I would deal with it accordingly………….I am still compiling the post that would contain the drafts……….that I saved for Upasana………..the idiotic things I did to share my feelings with her someday…………..but that day has never arrived till now………..so I will put them here……….maybe someday she would go through them……….maybe never……….who cares now……….I have a life to live……….and yes this song……saathi salaam by Sawan khan manganiyar and Clinton cerejo……..gives me goose bumps……listening to this while writing…….enjoy!

Hope

Hi,

As usual feeling low on energy………….construction going on in my parents house………….so lots of noise all day long…….I live with my parents………as a result of this construction work I can’t sleep………because I work in rotational shifts……………so I most of the time feel like my body is not properly relaxed…………..as I wake up many times in between………..tomorrow onward same old hectic schedule beginning………..have to go to my classes……..then office obviously……….and all the crap………..and then I would reach home around 1:00 AM in the morning………so that’s how things are going to be from tomorrow onward………I hope that this period of recovery and this schedule goes well and I do not get caught up in anxiety…………I will do my best to cope up…………..rest is in gods hands……..I leave my worries to him………….by the way I am better off…………clots in the eye are almost gone…………..can breath better………coughing is less…………I guess almost all the blockage is removed…………..continuing my medicine……….for three more days………….so that its completely removed……………then I will bounce back to a better me…………..I will take care that this does not happens again to me…………..and yes one piece of free advice…………you would find it really helpful in the long run…………keep all your medical bills and prescriptions in one file………..it is very helpful to doctors………and you could always refer back to the prescriptions and take the same medicines………….though I would not recommend the latter………….but yes its good to keep the medical history………..so coming back………….I still need a new job offer from a different company…………as I still don’t have any………..and I have already resigned from this piece of crap company…………….and serving my notice period…………which is two months of without pay slavery………….as the salary for these two months would come after the full and final settlement…………I have bills to pay………..but they would be delayed………….and then the search for a new job………….huhhh…………god knows whats in store for me…………..hope everything turns out well……