Hi,
Hope everything is going great in your lives…
I recently had a fight with Neha…
and since then she is not talking to me….
and it seems like it is all a fake fight she has put up with me….
she blocked me on whats app…
and then removed her display pic to confuse me…
presently I am unblocked…
she is not sending any good morning or good evening or good night wishes that she used to send earlier..
it all started after the meeting….
her parents are arranging her marriage…
and though I have told her everything…
she insists on going by the decision of her parents…
she told me that she does not wants to be an example for her juniors…
though when we talk I feel that it is not what she wants..
she is pretending to be rude to me…
I felt really bad when she did that..
she does not says “Hi” even…
I know nothing is instantanious…
but I think I have done my part…
I have told her that I am not backing out on any commitment…
and I would like to meet her parents too..
but she refuses…
So, everything seems to be stuck around her…
and I think she is occupying my mind alot…
I want to get my mind free of her…
and I think it is due to the fact I was very much occupied…..
occupied to make things work between us…
and forgot to live…
my friend advise me to move out of it…
as my part is done and over…
but I realize my mistake now…
she was after me because I was happy..
I gave importance to myself…
but now I was not respecting myself…
this whole post has showed me that she was so much on my mind all the time…
while I was not on hers…
she is able to focus on other things…
her studies… her family… her friends…
but I am not able to focus on the good things…
all I was doing was thinking about her and her issues….
that she doesn’t even want to deal with…
I think I should go with the flow and accept what is….
rather than pretend and lie to myself that everything is fine…
I know things are not fine now….
and I think that they will never be exactly like we want…
but how they meant to be…