things would be how they meant to be, not the way we want..

Hi,

 

Hope everything is going great in your lives…

I recently had a fight with Neha…

and since then she is not talking to me….

and it seems like it is all a fake fight she has put up with me….

she blocked me on whats app…

and then removed her display pic to confuse me…

presently I am unblocked…

she is not sending any good morning or good evening or good night wishes that she used to send earlier..

it all started after the meeting….

her parents are arranging her marriage…

and though I have told her everything…

she insists on going by the decision of her parents…

she told me that she does not wants to be an example for her juniors…

though when we talk I feel that it is not what she wants..

she is pretending to be rude to me…

I felt really bad when she did that..

she does not says “Hi” even…

I know nothing is instantanious…

but I think I have done my part…

I have told her that I am not backing out on any commitment…

and I would like to meet her parents too..

but she refuses…

So, everything seems to be stuck around her…

and I think she is occupying my mind alot…

I want to get my mind free of her…

and I think it is due to the fact I was very much occupied…..

occupied to make things work between us…

and forgot to live…

my friend advise me to move out of it…

as my part is done and over…

but I realize my mistake now…

she was after me because I was happy..

I gave importance to myself…

but now I was not respecting myself…

this whole post has showed me that she was so much on my mind all the time…

while I was not on hers…

she is able to focus on other things…

her studies… her family… her friends…

but I am not able to focus on the good things…

all I was doing was thinking about her and her issues….

that she doesn’t even want to deal with…

I think I should go with the flow and accept what is….

rather than pretend and lie to myself that everything is fine…

I know things are not fine now….

and I think that they will never be exactly like we want…

but how they meant to be…

 

 

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I am trying

Hi,

 

I managed to fail yet another interview……….but yes I am happy…… at-least I made a move…………lets see where I end up………..

anyhow………I really appreciate all the love and support I am getting from you all………….love you……….keep on motivating me………..you all are like my fuel………….

things that i have predicted in my older posts are turning out to be true now…………..and yes people in office did missed me…………..that includes my friends and others………….

the manager is so cheap that he did not provided me pick up and drop from office……….on the last working days…………the shift timings were odd……….it used to begin at 1430 hours and end at 0000………and at 0000 getting a auto or taxi is very difficult……….I was almost stuck on 08/05/2014 in the office………….

I wish someday that son of a bitch would get what he deserves………… karma will take its toll……

I wanted to forgive and forget………..but this did it…………..anyhow…………now I would have TIME……….I would be able to sketch and write…………and maybe paint………..and obviously study…………live a normal routine for some time………..meet people………..and read…

there is a load of books that is accumulating dust………..and some pdf’s that are loosing their binary code…………I will release their pain of being idle……….

I am still dealing with the same old question that is how to understand a woman………they like you……..dress up for you………like talking to you………but still they ignore you……..what does this mean……..

If you like someone……..you do what you have to do……….to spend time and be with them……….where will this ignoring part be useful……….

as I wrote in my earlier posts……….it takes time to forget…….time is the ultimate medicine……..

there is still a lot to do………..and there is so less done……..every-time I study I realize……..how less I know……….

I am getting sleepless nights now a days………I guess my energy is not utilized fully………I will include some workout too in my daily routine……..after switching to glutton free diet…….I already feel more active…….