Round and Round

Hi,

She needs space..

I am giving that to her…

but she is not talking to me like before….

she hardly asks anything…

and she ignores my messages as well….

I have tried multiple times to ask her what is it that she is going through…

she does not responds to that as well…

I feel like talking to a wall….

feels like I am compromising my self respect here…

I have left aside my ego… but to no avail…

she keeps on talking to others… but not me…

she does not text me anymore…

but today I ignored her…

and she started crying…

what was that all about…

its like a merry go round…

until she talks… situation would not be cleared…

and her silence is hurting both of us I think…

if not her its me.. I have lost sleep and appetite…

why cant she just share what is going on inside her mind…

finally she sent me a text today….

but not to wish me… but to accuse me that I lied to her…

she asked me to inform someone… and I informed…

but that person doesn’t like her much…. so he told her that I didn’t informed about anything…

now its a very small thing… and probably anyone with a mature mindset would try to get at least everyone put his/her part before making a judgement…

but since she is she…

accused me for lying to her…. I guess its her way of starting a conversation with me again….

or worse… she is looking for points to bring up a fight…

now if she is trying to bring up a fight…

it could either be good… or real bad….

god.. now I understand why no one is able to understand women….

and it turned out to be the former… a conversation starter…

and after some time I realized that these were all tests….

I was being put through a series of rigorous test series…. and I think I did well…..

I told her that I am not afraid of commitment…

but I need some time to settle down in life and career….

 

 

 

Hope

Hi,

As usual feeling low on energy………….construction going on in my parents house………….so lots of noise all day long…….I live with my parents………as a result of this construction work I can’t sleep………because I work in rotational shifts……………so I most of the time feel like my body is not properly relaxed…………..as I wake up many times in between………..tomorrow onward same old hectic schedule beginning………..have to go to my classes……..then office obviously……….and all the crap………..and then I would reach home around 1:00 AM in the morning………so that’s how things are going to be from tomorrow onward………I hope that this period of recovery and this schedule goes well and I do not get caught up in anxiety…………I will do my best to cope up…………..rest is in gods hands……..I leave my worries to him………….by the way I am better off…………clots in the eye are almost gone…………..can breath better………coughing is less…………I guess almost all the blockage is removed…………..continuing my medicine……….for three more days………….so that its completely removed……………then I will bounce back to a better me…………..I will take care that this does not happens again to me…………..and yes one piece of free advice…………you would find it really helpful in the long run…………keep all your medical bills and prescriptions in one file………..it is very helpful to doctors………and you could always refer back to the prescriptions and take the same medicines………….though I would not recommend the latter………….but yes its good to keep the medical history………..so coming back………….I still need a new job offer from a different company…………as I still don’t have any………..and I have already resigned from this piece of crap company…………….and serving my notice period…………which is two months of without pay slavery………….as the salary for these two months would come after the full and final settlement…………I have bills to pay………..but they would be delayed………….and then the search for a new job………….huhhh…………god knows whats in store for me…………..hope everything turns out well……