enjoying the way

Hi,

 

Thank you for your love and support…

I have been getting over Neha since my last post…

and I am doing good now…

She is not on my mind all the time…

like she used to be always… 

I can concentrate on things at hand.. and work…

Yes we are still talking… 

but there is a slight distance.. that i have maintained…

I don’t want to smother her with affection… 

I don’t think about future… anymore…

I am living in present again… and I am over the feeling of loosing her as well…

and now it feels awesome… 

I realized she is not a thing… that I could say is mine…

she is a living being… has her own ways…

has her own beliefs… 

I liked her the way she was… If i try to posses her…

she has to mend her ways as per my wishes… unwillingly…

and forced changes do not bring any good with them…

as they are not accepted… 

so is the case with me as well…

Thanks to a recent gem added to my friends list Piyush…

he made me understand this…

we recently had our new hire party in office…

and it was a success…

everyone loved it…

there was something for everyone…

and everyone seemed full…

they enjoyed it… and finally welcomed me and Piyush to the team…

I loved it too..

So life is back on track again…. and if death is the next thing coming…

i would be able to face it in the eye… till it looks down with regrets….

but I still need to put some more efforts into the course material…

I have been legging behind for some time now…

I am passionate about these classes….

and I have been doing good…

but these bumps in the road had some impact on it…

now the ride is going a bit smooth… till the next bump…

and I should not wait for it…

I should make preparations now…

and I have no regrets fro life… 😀

I did what I could do… 

to the best of my abilities…

and I would keep on doing that….

till I live…

Yes I am drunk while I am writing this post…

It had been quite some time.. I did not spent time with myself…

and today i am all to myself… listening to pink floyd… and writing my feelings…

I realized that when I write down I get a better perception of my life..

one from my perspective… and from your perspectives as well…

makes me think before making decisions…

makes me formulate a plan of action that is better…

workable and effective…

rest is fate…

I am not afraid to fail… because every time I fail… I fail better…

I feel better… because.. I did what I could do… rather than not doing anything at all…

makes me happy inside… even if did not achieve anything…

the satisfaction of “at least I tried” weighs more than the achievement…

it makes us humble as well…

though I have no special achievements…

but I am hopeful….

lets see what universe has planned for me…

I am just enjoying the journey…

 

 

advance ahead

Hi, Today is Sunday………….so as usual………..I slept a lot…………..then I woke up late in the afternoon………….feeling relaxed……..as the computer must have felt after a refresh is hit………….then I got messages that reminded me to study as there would be a test on Tuesday…………so I have to prepare and study…………but as we study or open books…………..i don’t understand why sleep strikes back………….and if you don’t sleep…………the mind goes off to wander about in thoughts……………no matter how much you try to keep it within reigns…………so today I went back in the flashback………….the day when we went to the engagement of Abhishek kirar IMG-20140121-WA0019 IMG-20140121-WA0020 IMG-20140121-WA0022 IMG-20140121-WA0025…………I was  broke…………you may find the reason in my older posts………….so what we did was………..we went to his engagement…………attended the ceremony……………and then took a metro back…………..while we were in the metro………..all of a sudden there was a development…………..a new plan………….the plan was to go to “Connaught Place”……….as there is this bar that serves drinks till late in the night………..it was around 2300 already when we were in the metro………..I agreed to the plan because I needed to divert my mind as it was going berserk……………so we were all dressed up…………me Akshay and Vasutosh…………we went out of the metro station towards that bar to find out that it was about to close…………..the final orders were being taken inside………..I was not in a mood to talk much so I kept on listening and following them…………we went inquiring from person to person…………then finally we went to another bar…………..Rahul and Nitin was with us in the metro too…………they left us as Nitin was not in the mood to drink and Rahul does not drinks………..so we went into this bar………..I wanted to have the house wine that they served……….but as it was late…………it was not available……..so we setteled for the pitcher of beer………..Vasutosh ordered a mojito I guess I don’t exactly remember his drink……….I was string out of the window………watching people pass by……….then we paid the price 3 times the normal……….ImageImage so now we were little drunk ………..all dressed up……..and roaming on the streets without any plan or clue…………we sat for some time in the central park………..I played this song on my mobile phone

………..it was peaceful…………no traffic noise……….the sound seemed to be so perfect………..and we were lost into it………..voice of a great singer……….Hans Raj Hans……… Shruti Pathak is awesome too…………..makes you dwell……….almost binds you instantaneously…………..and lyrics went well with me………….old traditional lyrics…………translation would be difficult for me as I partially understand the lyrics………..but I can give it a try if you want to understand……….just add a comment……… Ve aa ve Mahi
Teku saad pai ve maaran
Ve tu mulakh vasa leya keda
Panchi vi uud gharan nu aa Gaye sajna
Keo chit nai karda Tera
Haal ve Rabba
Lutti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Mari teriyan gama di
Aar vi bela par vi bela
Vich bele de jaavan
Aa miyan ranjha Jogi ban ke
Jind di Khol gamava
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Aar vi bela par vi bela
Bela kinne banaya
Aa miyan ranjha Bach ke chaliye
Chacha kedon aaya
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Birha birha aakhiye
Burha tun sultan
Farida jit tan birhon na upjai
Jo tan jaan Masaan
Ek din bulbul chaman de andar,
Koyal nu puchan lagi
Ve raat din tu reh kurlandi
Kiss Surat di thaggi
Kisde sog kitta rang kala
Ja hai kisdi vaggi
Hashmat shah aage ro ke misra
Aiyo hi aakhan lagi
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba   the story does not ends here………….after that Vasutosh wanted to have soup…………New Delhi railway station is nearbyIMG-20140121-WA0026 IMG-20140121-WA0027 IMG-20140121-WA0028 IMG-20140121-WA0029 ………..so we went there roaming around………..but unfortunately………..we got no place where we could have soup…………so there was a change of plan………….we went Pahar ganj………..its near the railway station……….we walked almost 7-8 kilometers in the whole night………..we had a word with the cab drivers………so that we could arrange a cab………..that could drop us back home………..they were asking too much…………by this time it was almost 0300…………so i suggested that lets wait for some more time…………and catch the first metro back home………..we did exactly the same…………Akshay left us at “Rajiv Chowk”…………me and Vasutosh got a bus from “Botanical Garden”…………and finally we were back home………..I was feeling better………….I realized that when things are not going your way……….just keep on flowing with the flow………..no matter much you are feeling low……….you would at least be mobile……………..which is required to advance……..advance ahead……….as an intelligent man once said………..if you are going through HELL……….keep going………   by the way I have uploaded some of my sketches on a new page……….http://immabelike.com/sketches/ hope you like them………Angeline M motivated me to do this http://angelinem.wordpress.com/ this is her blog url 🙂 Thanks Angeline M.