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Unfriend

Hi,

I am not feeling well these days……….cough, cold, headache…………so its like I am on a high with medicines all the time………..they make me sleepy…………….and I get mood swings too…………I am fed up of the life I have at present……………screwed up social life………time constraints……..money constraints………yesterday I started to write down…………I thought I would finish writing a post for my blog………….but I end up saving it as a draft……….I appreciate the love and support of fellow bloggers………they motivate and encourage me to write……….today I thought about moving on………….from every crap I have been hanging on to………..like Upasana and her memories………….well they wont go………..but i can do things that would not remind me of her………..so I deleted her from my facebook account………….and some stupid assholes like Dushyant and…………the crazy bitch Shaifalee…………she didn’t responded to my holi wishes even…………so these people are deleted………..now I will be reminded about the less and it would be easier for me to move on and think about better things……………..I would concentrate on my career and finances……………I would be able to devote better time to my family………..and of course……….I would write more………….

Tradeoffs

Hi,

 

This week has been crazy…………..lack of sleep………….low attendance in the classes…………..son of a bitch manager in the office…………management of funds……….credit card bill……….ATM’s spilling out torn notes on me………it is like a roller coaster ride in hell…………and these are the situations where I feel I need somebody to just cover me up……………to stay by my side and rub my shoulders…………….and look me into the eyes and say…………its okay………leave this and think anew…………..everyone has to deal with this………….and you are doing just fine……….well that’s destiny and luck…………still searching for my girl………..not found her in years…………have fallen for some………..some fell for me…………but it never worked out………..as if it was not intended to………….sometimes I was reluctant……….sometimes them……….and others were a drama scene…………like Shaifalee………..she blocked me on whats app just because I wanted to be her friend…………..that’s how life is…………..going crazy, insane……….even the art of deduction of great Sherlock holmes fail here………..Upasana is a queen bitch………..the kind that top the chart………..I don’t say I am good or perfect…………but when I compare my bitch level with theirs………..they are magnanimously high on that scale……….now the coming week would be busy too…………as the shifts are getting one hour earlier………..i will get more sleep………..and I want to be regular in the classes………..but damn………..no one can function with three hours of sleep………….its like everything is falling and I have to catch each and everything……………but then I have to choose between two things which are apart……….whether sleep……….or classes…………now classes are dependent on sleep………..because without a fresh maid I would grasp nothing……….so I choose to sleep…………..at least I would be able to relax and think………