Aside

no more

Hi,

 

Today I am in numb state………unable to think much……..

have been in front of my computer for the past 18 hours………my eyes are sore………and have a mild headache too……….

but I like it……..I guess I am weird……..it shows me that I had a successful day…………

Indeed the day was successful………..I learnt so much………there were some areas where I was getting stuck………I was able to deal and conquer some of them………rest are still there to deal with………

every-time I see at things at hand after finishing tasks………..I feel like new have piled up in the mean time……..so there is a never-ending list of things to-do………

well…..I am keeping myself busy………..hoping to cover as much ground as possible……….

friends have been busy in their life’s………Abhishek Tiwari called me………I guess he really missed me………..

met my old friend Rishabh bawa aka bawa……….he is a great friend………..he makes me feel good and laugh when I am nervous and low…….and I really like that about him……

sometimes I feel like my PC might explode………..it keeps on running for almost 12-14 hours a day…….

the classes are going fine……..and I now I really understand what is being taught…….

there are times when everything goes over the head……….then there are times when 2 plus two does not equals  4 for me…….

then there are unanswered questions that I am left to deal with………it makes it interesting……..and I like that…….

after leaving the job………I really feel relaxed………the piling up negativity is going away……..and would be gone shortly………

I now think about how I have been behaving………..it was just not me……..I was doing things……..without thinking………

but whatever has happened was a part of life………taught me a lot…….made me better……..

I now am not afraid of making mistakes………some might say that all the time…….but I feel it…….and I am actually doing it……

like the quote……fall down 8…….stand up 9……..

I like the quote from Rocky Balboa……..where he is talking to his son…….about how winning is done……

I wont write that down……..please search for it……….watch it……..if you like it too…….let me know……..I would appreciate that……..

hope that I get a good job soon……..

I am getting positive vibes……..all the time……..from almost everyone………

I can now smile without efforts too………naturally…….

I guess there was so much negativity in that place………it got to me……….

but now no more….

Aside

Fed-Up

Hi,

Life has taken pace………I am doing my best to cope up…………..heat is rising………..the temperature is rising rapidly now a days around 30 to 34 degrees centigrade…………it feels like being in an oven……….Vinay……….my teacher………..he is a disciplined man…………and seeks that in his students too…………I am not that disciplined…………..but I am doing my best to cope up…………….got a new phone delivered at my home……….I ordered one online………….still waiting for a good interview call…………..Abhishek tiwari is behaving in a bizarre way so is Akshay……..maybe a lot is going on in their lives……..they are good friends but gets bossy sometimes…………..at times I like it………at times i don’t………..anyhow…………..I skipped office today……………..met a old friend Rishab bawa………….I still remember the jokes we use to crack on each other…………like………..”knock knock”………whose this……….”bawa”…………….bawa who?……………bawa bawa black sheep………….he is a laughing stock all the time……..we had a great time mocking and poking each other………we had pizza………..and then I bid him good bye………….and went back home…………I saw this elderly lady begging at botanical garden metro station………..a person went over to her and asked why was she there……….she told him about something and started crying………….the person gave her 300 rupees and told her to go home…………and went away………I was watching…………as soon as he left………..she kept the money in her bag…….she cried for some time………but did not moved………..she was still there……….begging……….I realized that it was not the money she needed………..300 is not a very big amount………in India specially in metro cities……….this amount can last for two or three days for food…………she needed a shelter I think…………with people with similar life story………….where she would be able to rehabilitate………….like old age homes that keep the elderly………….I wish that I could have done something for her…………I could not think of any way at that time to help her………..so once I reached home I marked email to an NGO to help her…………I have not received any reply as of now……….maybe someday……….I would be able to sponsor something for the needy…………I am against begging…………for a able bodied person begging should not be an option………..there should be punishment for it even…………..but in its place work should be provided………….so that they don’t need to beg anymore…………..its high time already as a country for us to be among st the developed……………I think its the perfect time for military rule in India………….radical changes are required to reform the structure…………..and till the time we keep on electing the same people who have been utilizing the loop holes for their benefit………..it would be very difficult………..might take some decades or more………and frankly speaking our generation is impatient……….we are fed up already……..maybe these radical changes will improve the condition of people that we see everyday begging…….