Nerds and Geeks

Hello everyone,

Hope this post finds you in good health and best of spirits.

Its been a while again that I posted something here.

Been doing things that I didn’t did before.

I now have registered my business and have been promoting it.

Please do check out our Facebook page.

Its in its infant stage as of now.

https://www.facebook.com/nerdsandgeekspage/?ref=hl

 

If you really like something, do order.

Maybe there would be glitches in the final stages of order processing by the store.

Please feel free to share the details on the Facebook page, we would process your order in the best possible way and take immediate correction measures.

Anyhow it’s been a tremendous team effort. I started alone but then my friends came along and now I see more people coming in and investing their energies.

It is overwhelming and I am doing my best to cope up with this support.

I really wish to do my best for everyone involved. but yes there are some financial concerns involved.

So, all I can offer them presently is to believe in this initiative and that it will certainly pay them off. Maybe not now, but eventually.

So, please help me promote it as much as possible.

Its been great support and love that I found here.

Wish you all the very best.

Good day!

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and just like that

Hi,

Its monsoon here… days are getting shorter now….

the air is very pleasing too….

hope you all are doing great…

I started this blog to share and learn…

It helped me a lot…

in every way I learned… I grew…

I learned that I get too involved with people…

I have seen this happening to me over and over again….

the more I stay a little distant…

the better it gets with time…

the more closer i get to people…

the more they get judgmental about me I think…

when I am open… I start sharing everything…

I tried to restrict myself… I became very critical…

I realized there is nothing mild I could do…

I reach the extreme…

I start caring… I become too caring…

I stop caring… I am like a wall…

I reason being is I keep pushing my limits…

and most of the time the people fail to notify me on time…. and I don’t notice it myself….

I keep on doing it till… I reach the breaking point…

and no matter what I can’t pretend to be nice to someone whom I dislike…

I cannot smile to their face…. and abuse them in my mind….

I have tried that… it feels good…

but not worth it… I think a person should know what you think about them….

its about honesty… but we can’t expect the same…

so its like give but don’t expect…

and this will bring happiness in turn…

I am happy…. but I am having mood swings….

I feel this energy sometimes… and sometimes I am just drained…

sometimes I am just laughing all the time…. and soon I am silent…

I want to get over these mood swings…

the sooner the better…

It is affecting my relationship with my family and friends….

I cannot let that happen….

I want peace… I did mistake of ignoring early warnings….

but not anymore…

I am getting better day by day…

any ways I had a great time with Akshay…

I recently went to Ghaziabad…

Akshay lives there… so I met him…

and then the fun begins…

we had a few drinks…

and then we went to this club…

It has live music…

and then we went crazy… it was a mad rush…

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Me again

Hi,

I think you are doing great…

I have been over Neha recently…

now I am doing better…

and I realized that when someone has nothing to lose…

the pleasure in attempting things…

the independence is intoxicating…

it gives a euphoria…

a feeling I wish you all to experience someday…

I feel great in terms of mental peace…

I am able to focus again on things at hand…

I after a long time found myself reading again…

I was able to concentrate…

I don’t blame her for over-thinking….

It was me… I was too much involved mentally with her…

I have told her everything…  and that too… over and over again…

but she still refuses…

So its time to pack bags… and look out…

I have been busy lately… classes… office….

and her… it all kept me excessively busy…

I was hardly getting time to spend with myself….

And as a result… I was accepting everything…

without questioning… because I was not taking time to think…

now I will… I will think a little and then answer her…

maybe that would happen never….

if she wants to talk… she would approach…

I would not make the slightest move now….

I have a plan… and I have to work on that…

I have realized that whenever I get too involved…

I don’t think about other things… and I stop taking time out for myself…

I gave her books back…

Guess what…

Enough about her already….

I met my friends last weekend….

It was awesome….

They came to pick me up at 5 AM in the morning…

and we went on for a ride….

we shared… we smiled…. we enjoyed….

And the best part was…. I needed it… and it was a surprise…

I spent a whole day without talking to her….

I realized that she has been treating me badly….

When I compare the way a person treats or talks to me to the way she talks or treats me….

I realize I should not have entertained her so much….

It felt nice to be me again…

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Equanimity

Hi,

Hope you all have a great weekend..

Its been three days and we are hardly talking….

she said many things but now I feel she never meant any of them…

I think she needs her own space…

now she has it… I am no more in the equation…

hope that helps her….

I have awesome friends….

they have been there for me…..

they have supported me….

made me laugh….

and they helped to bring out the best in me….

and I feel really grateful to them….

she came into my life… she gave me some memories….

but things did not went well…

but with my friends I never have to think about things going right or wrong….

no matter how I am… they accept me…

and I think that is what is the key for a successful bond….

she is unable to accept me as I am… keeps on passing the blame onto me…

that simply means.. she does not deserved me in the first place….

and it was so foolish of me to keep it dragging…

I gave her more importance then myself….

and I think that is where it all went wrong….

and the best part is I did it… without realizing what I was doing….

and now that I have realized it… I think the damage has been done…

I read some articles on behavior… and she turned out to be a “toxic person”….

the way she behaves with me now a days….

she twists my words to pass the blame onto me….

she hardly makes any effort to know about my well being…

and she has been taking me for granted…

makes me pursue her all the time… and enjoys it…

I have no problem doing that… but she does not shows any respect at all…

no compassion… no consideration….

she used to make me laugh… but she had not done it in a long while…

and I don’t want to criticize her for it…

I want to be with her in the hoping that she would do it some day…

but the reality is she would not be with me…

following her parents wishes…

she would get married to someone… and I would be left alone…

I don’t know what to do anymore…

It’s like being in the middle of a dark tunnel… and not knowing which way to go…

like there is no light on both the ends….

and I am left all alone….

but eventually I will get to the end…

and be in the light again… and I feel like she would be there…

along with my friends… and everything would be as it is meant to be….

 

 

advance ahead

Hi, Today is Sunday………….so as usual………..I slept a lot…………..then I woke up late in the afternoon………….feeling relaxed……..as the computer must have felt after a refresh is hit………….then I got messages that reminded me to study as there would be a test on Tuesday…………so I have to prepare and study…………but as we study or open books…………..i don’t understand why sleep strikes back………….and if you don’t sleep…………the mind goes off to wander about in thoughts……………no matter how much you try to keep it within reigns…………so today I went back in the flashback………….the day when we went to the engagement of Abhishek kirar IMG-20140121-WA0019 IMG-20140121-WA0020 IMG-20140121-WA0022 IMG-20140121-WA0025…………I was  broke…………you may find the reason in my older posts………….so what we did was………..we went to his engagement…………attended the ceremony……………and then took a metro back…………..while we were in the metro………..all of a sudden there was a development…………..a new plan………….the plan was to go to “Connaught Place”……….as there is this bar that serves drinks till late in the night………..it was around 2300 already when we were in the metro………..I agreed to the plan because I needed to divert my mind as it was going berserk……………so we were all dressed up…………me Akshay and Vasutosh…………we went out of the metro station towards that bar to find out that it was about to close…………..the final orders were being taken inside………..I was not in a mood to talk much so I kept on listening and following them…………we went inquiring from person to person…………then finally we went to another bar…………..Rahul and Nitin was with us in the metro too…………they left us as Nitin was not in the mood to drink and Rahul does not drinks………..so we went into this bar………..I wanted to have the house wine that they served……….but as it was late…………it was not available……..so we setteled for the pitcher of beer………..Vasutosh ordered a mojito I guess I don’t exactly remember his drink……….I was string out of the window………watching people pass by……….then we paid the price 3 times the normal……….ImageImage so now we were little drunk ………..all dressed up……..and roaming on the streets without any plan or clue…………we sat for some time in the central park………..I played this song on my mobile phone

………..it was peaceful…………no traffic noise……….the sound seemed to be so perfect………..and we were lost into it………..voice of a great singer……….Hans Raj Hans……… Shruti Pathak is awesome too…………..makes you dwell……….almost binds you instantaneously…………..and lyrics went well with me………….old traditional lyrics…………translation would be difficult for me as I partially understand the lyrics………..but I can give it a try if you want to understand……….just add a comment……… Ve aa ve Mahi
Teku saad pai ve maaran
Ve tu mulakh vasa leya keda
Panchi vi uud gharan nu aa Gaye sajna
Keo chit nai karda Tera
Haal ve Rabba
Lutti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Mari teriyan gama di
Aar vi bela par vi bela
Vich bele de jaavan
Aa miyan ranjha Jogi ban ke
Jind di Khol gamava
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Aar vi bela par vi bela
Bela kinne banaya
Aa miyan ranjha Bach ke chaliye
Chacha kedon aaya
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba
Birha birha aakhiye
Burha tun sultan
Farida jit tan birhon na upjai
Jo tan jaan Masaan
Ek din bulbul chaman de andar,
Koyal nu puchan lagi
Ve raat din tu reh kurlandi
Kiss Surat di thaggi
Kisde sog kitta rang kala
Ja hai kisdi vaggi
Hashmat shah aage ro ke misra
Aiyo hi aakhan lagi
Luti heer ve fakir di
Haal ve rabba   the story does not ends here………….after that Vasutosh wanted to have soup…………New Delhi railway station is nearbyIMG-20140121-WA0026 IMG-20140121-WA0027 IMG-20140121-WA0028 IMG-20140121-WA0029 ………..so we went there roaming around………..but unfortunately………..we got no place where we could have soup…………so there was a change of plan………….we went Pahar ganj………..its near the railway station……….we walked almost 7-8 kilometers in the whole night………..we had a word with the cab drivers………so that we could arrange a cab………..that could drop us back home………..they were asking too much…………by this time it was almost 0300…………so i suggested that lets wait for some more time…………and catch the first metro back home………..we did exactly the same…………Akshay left us at “Rajiv Chowk”…………me and Vasutosh got a bus from “Botanical Garden”…………and finally we were back home………..I was feeling better………….I realized that when things are not going your way……….just keep on flowing with the flow………..no matter much you are feeling low……….you would at least be mobile……………..which is required to advance……..advance ahead……….as an intelligent man once said………..if you are going through HELL……….keep going………   by the way I have uploaded some of my sketches on a new page……….http://immabelike.com/sketches/ hope you like them………Angeline M motivated me to do this http://angelinem.wordpress.com/ this is her blog url 🙂 Thanks Angeline M.

Aside

Fed-Up

Hi,

Life has taken pace………I am doing my best to cope up…………..heat is rising………..the temperature is rising rapidly now a days around 30 to 34 degrees centigrade…………it feels like being in an oven……….Vinay……….my teacher………..he is a disciplined man…………and seeks that in his students too…………I am not that disciplined…………..but I am doing my best to cope up…………….got a new phone delivered at my home……….I ordered one online………….still waiting for a good interview call…………..Abhishek tiwari is behaving in a bizarre way so is Akshay……..maybe a lot is going on in their lives……..they are good friends but gets bossy sometimes…………..at times I like it………at times i don’t………..anyhow…………..I skipped office today……………..met a old friend Rishab bawa………….I still remember the jokes we use to crack on each other…………like………..”knock knock”………whose this……….”bawa”…………….bawa who?……………bawa bawa black sheep………….he is a laughing stock all the time……..we had a great time mocking and poking each other………we had pizza………..and then I bid him good bye………….and went back home…………I saw this elderly lady begging at botanical garden metro station………..a person went over to her and asked why was she there……….she told him about something and started crying………….the person gave her 300 rupees and told her to go home…………and went away………I was watching…………as soon as he left………..she kept the money in her bag…….she cried for some time………but did not moved………..she was still there……….begging……….I realized that it was not the money she needed………..300 is not a very big amount………in India specially in metro cities……….this amount can last for two or three days for food…………she needed a shelter I think…………with people with similar life story………….where she would be able to rehabilitate………….like old age homes that keep the elderly………….I wish that I could have done something for her…………I could not think of any way at that time to help her………..so once I reached home I marked email to an NGO to help her…………I have not received any reply as of now……….maybe someday……….I would be able to sponsor something for the needy…………I am against begging…………for a able bodied person begging should not be an option………..there should be punishment for it even…………..but in its place work should be provided………….so that they don’t need to beg anymore…………..its high time already as a country for us to be among st the developed……………I think its the perfect time for military rule in India………….radical changes are required to reform the structure…………..and till the time we keep on electing the same people who have been utilizing the loop holes for their benefit………..it would be very difficult………..might take some decades or more………and frankly speaking our generation is impatient……….we are fed up already……..maybe these radical changes will improve the condition of people that we see everyday begging…….

Aside

in between

Hi,

A lot has happened in the past couple of days………….time has gained pace again…………it has started to flow………..ceaselessly………..my manager the great lord of jackasses asked me to mark him an email about my experience at my workplace for the past one year………..

here is the email I sent to him…….

From: Kapil

Sent: Thursday, April 17, 2014 11:34 PM
To: Anshuman
Cc: Ajay
Subject: My Journey at ford.

Hi,

My journey at ford has been very interesting, enriching….
It taught me life.

It taught me about Accomplishments….

accomplishment

It taught me about Adventure…..

adventure
It taught me about being consistent……

consistency

It taught me how to be distinguished from others……

distinguished

It taught me the power of dreams….

dreams

It taught me how to look at my superiors….

self esteem
And finally the hard work and teamwork…..

team work
Regards
Kapil

then there was the reception of Abhishek kirar………….as planned we all were there again………….this time Vasutosh made it………….well his gift is still pending………..Rahul is reading my posts regularly…………he read my last post and made Abhishek tiwari read it too…………I think he did not liked what I wrote………….but it is the Solomon truth…………….moving on from all this………….I abused my shift lead on his face while he was pretending that he did not did anything…………..I was logged on to my tool………..and someone was changing its state before I could complete my work…………..I realized that as soon as Anshuman das went outside for a dinner break……….it stopped…………..then he came back…………..I went to his desk…………..I saw him monitoring…………..he was the culprit……………..I was irate………….I thought about making a scene on the floor…………………but then I stopped myself………….that asshole was messaging Vijay………..my manager…………that I am reading a novel and not working……………Vijay came over to my desk and told me that I was not doing my work…………..I did not took his words to my head and kept on doing my work……………….I thought that lets let it be……….I resolve to be happy………..but then he asked for what he deserved…………..when the shift ended………….he accompanied me and Akshay…………….I ignored him…………after 10 minute of talks between him and Akshay…………….he finally asked………….”Hey what happened between you and Vijay”……………I told him that a “CHOOTIA” (hindi for asshole) was changing the state of my tool and messaging Vijay at the same time…………….and after this his face was like a banana that is left in open for two days…………decaying and black……………and he went inside the building…………….I and Akshay had a laugh…………….

then 22nd is the day on which our project completes a year…………….there was a budget for celebration allocated to the managers…………out of which…………they ordered T-shirts and lanyards………..and the celebration was a stupid cake cutting ceremony……………….for the biggest project in this company……………what a shame…………..and later that day all the managerial staff was missing from the floor…………..they saved the money and enjoyed………….and then they blabber about leadership and team-spirit…………trust and growth…………and there are people who would go to any extent for the silliest things…………..I saw people doing it……………..and I think………….how could anyone rely on these people for the slightest of things……managers and teammates……….no trust………..as trust breeds trust…………….how can people just deny what happens in front of them and are okay with it…….maybe they will learn by their own experience……….and I felt again that this place is not for me…………..the decision was a good decision then and it is still…………..rest god will take care of everything…………….and yes I lost my cell phone in Abhishek kirar’s reception…………….

and I am addicted to this song…….tu hi hai aashiqui by Arijit singh……..listen and enjoy……..hope you all would like it……..lyrics go well with my life…….